.x.|L I T H I U M|.x. [open]

[|E v o k e|]

Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside.
Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without...
Lithium, I want to stay in love with my sorrow.
Oh, but God, I want to let it go.

Come to bed, don't make me sleep alone.
Couldn't hide the emptiness, you let it show.
Never wanted it to be so cold.
Just didn't drink enough to say you love me.

I can't hold on to me,
Wonder what's wrong with me.

Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside.
Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without...
Lithium, I want to stay in love with my sorrow.


“And where do you plan to go, my dear, foolish Evoke?” Sharma’s deadly voice broke out into the darkness. Evoke glanced at him, watching him through lifeless yet dangerous optics. “Somewhere, I suppose, North.” She said simply, pondering over what she was actually going to do. “And why the sudden change of heart, my sweet, that you decide to leave me, like the w**** you are?” He was obviously pissed off, but, amazingly he had only inflicted a few hits on her. “Because I’m bored of you, Sharma, you’re too old.” Evoke answered matter-of-factly. Oh Evoke, she was never going to change, and that, might be the downfall of her, those words were dangerous to speak to someone such as Sharma. But then again, this is, Evoke. She won herself another bone shattering hit to the shoulder, yet, she didn’t repel, she welcomed the pain. “You have a vile mind Evoke, a mind of metal, a mind of brilliance to me, don’t waste it on a worthless piece of c***.” Those were his last words before melting back into the darkness. “Since when would you care.” She snapped with a bitter tone. Yet there was no reply. Just the sound of rain as it began to pour down, drenching her coat, trying to wash her clean, but failing miserably.

A heavy storm had obviously passed the night before. Trees had been snapped into two, blocking ways to secret places. The ground was that soft you couldn’t hear you’re footsteps. A thick, heavy fog settled over the terrain, hiding the ground from watching eyes. Basically the place was a wreck, a disaster. A truly horrific mess in some eyes, in others, a masterpiece. Destruction is fuel, destruction is exquisite. Daggers pierced at the helpless earth, sending heavy waves of through it. The white, perfect bodice of an Angel of Darkness, better know as Evoke, sped through the foliage. From the outside, her appearance against this scene, was like a white rose, trying to blend into a black canvas. Yet, from her inside point of view, she matched this place entirely, perhaps, more so then is natural. Soon enough, a log that had collapsed to the ground, blocked the path to the destination of which Evoke wanted to go. With a precise, steady leap, she discarded it like it was but a twig in her path, which is how she basically sees everything. Everything is but a twig in her path, waiting to be snapped into two.

Evoke had been traveling for what seemed ten days, continuously heading North. As if she was but a robot with a destination of nowhere but somewhere. She had stopped at times for a quick rest and to forage out some food and water, seeing as though if she ignored that she would be a fool. Her mind had basically been switched off from any thought, voices or anything else that might interrupt her during the time. But now, she was unable to control it, the voices ran through her head, tempting her with ideas, provoking her, insulting her, dragging her to the peak of insanity. But she ignored them, as best she could, for at the moment, all that mattered was ahead of her. The path she had taken but a mere three years ago, seemed to be have been the perfect one and only one she could take. Think about it, if Evoke had taken the path of light, could you imagine the type she would be? It’s quite amusing to think about, actually. But, away from that subject, for now.

Evoke finally stopped, and unlocked her senses, unlocked her mind. What she saw – and felt – was just what she needed. Ice. Snow. The cold. A deep breath was inhaled, letting the icy cold air sting her insides, the breath exhaled formed a white plume. The surroundings might have been clear and clean, perfect. But the air stung, bit and numbed Evoke, which, was the exact type of medication she was looking for. The white canvas was perfect for camouflage, but then, why would Evoke want to hide, eh? Evoke at the moment, was pure white, but for the muddy hooves and three wounds, of which the blood had dried and most of it had been lost due to the water that she had traveled either under or through. Evoke closed her eyes, taking in the cold, which matched her heart and soul so well. “Well at least I know there’s going to be somewhere to escape to.” Her tone was flat and emotionless, as always.

Don't want to let it lay me down this time.
Drown my will to fly.
Here in the darkness I know myself.
Can't break free until I let it go.
Let me go.

Darling, I forgive you after all.
Anything is better than to be alone.
And in the end I guess I had to fall.
Always find my place among the ashes.

I can't hold on to me,
Wonder what's wrong with me.

Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside.
Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without...
Lithium, ...stay in love with my sorrow.
I'm gonna let it go.



[o.o.c] Eh, it's crap, sorry.

EVOKE
.x.Angel of the Darkness .x.

[HITLER]

_{when i am on my own
i a m s o m e t h i n g e l s e}

<sub>Staring into oblivian, a stag stood. Yes, he was here on earth. But not really was he here. His mind, at least for this moment, was in another place. He never could figure out where himself. Shaking his crown in disgust that he had become lost in thoughts again. Pivoting on a strong hind pillar, his knives sliced at the earth making clean gashes as a pace of 2 beats was picked up. Steadily he trotted, with no general purpose, just away.

What was he going away from? The same thing he was headed towards. Ice. Thats all that covered this area, long thick sheet that was slick under his ebony daggers. CoCoa opticals only looked straight ahead, making no note of anyone near him. There was a thin layer of snow here and there. Suprising, since the sky, even in spring, had only taken on a light shade of blue. Tresses bounced along an angled boa. With his chin tucked in, like it normally was, he continued along his own path.

Steps quickened, than shortened, like he couldn't decide where he wanted to go or what he wanted to do. Neatly stepping around a boulder, since he saw no point in trying to jump the wreched thing, his pace finally settled again, this time in a smooth 3 beats. Shaking his dreambox, as if trying to clear it, tappers came to a halt on this icy part of hells roof. When orbs focussed again, a figure was in the distance. She blended in with everything, only the faint outline of her boa, thanks to her tresses, and her daggers made her visible in the land. Like a knive cutting butter, his deep cruel tones sliced through the silence.</sub>

you say i'm not worth it
l e t m e b e t h e j u d g e

[|E v o k e|]

I can't stay on your life support, there's a
shortage in the switch,
I can't stay on your morphine, cuz its making me
itch
I said I tried to call the nurse again but shes
being a little pregnant dog,
I think I'll get outta here, where I can



So, Evoke, care to enlighten me with your 'almighty' plan? As always, his voice came as soon as it could break through the barriers, which, wasn't hard to, at times. The voice, Evoke had decided, came from a demon named Cadvan, most likely someone she imagined up, though, through herself, he was basically real. Cadvan had to have been in her mind for around two years, maybe more, but you can never be to sure about it, what with all of the other things lurking in her mind. Evoke may seem perfectly sane, but, we all have our little demons. If you were capable of seeing through the eye into the mind, you would see everything as a dark abyss, waiting to suck you into oblivion. But more to the point, Evoke is a very troubled equine, this, she herself had figured out a while ago, and, she didn't give a d**n, naturally.

Oh, Cadvan, there never a plan. Evoke's response was that of always, truthful and blunt. A taunting laughter came shortly after, it seemed like there was more than just one. Why then, did you decide to leave that other brute? Cadvan asked, after the laughter had died down to an echo. I don't really think I have one; I suppose I just got bored. Why she continued to talk to them, when it was plain they annoyed her greatly, Evoke couldn't tell, really. You really are a young, foolish b.itch, aren't you? Cadvan's voice was harsh and piercing. I may be a b.itch, Cadvan, but, I'm pretty certain I'm not foolish, I left under my will. I don't need a reason to leave, I just will. She responded half-mindedly, seeing as though the other half was deep in thought. There was no answer, no more taunting laughter, only emptiness, after that.

A sigh was released after Evoke finally came out of her mind, and focused on the real world. Her body was becoming numb, breathing had settled itself to a normal pace. The next thing annoyed Evoke, partly because she was disturbed after finding a place she could think clearly, partly at herself, for not sensing it earlier. Voids opened slowly, dial turned, arching her neck slightly to see the one who had approached. A male, that much clear. Emotionless, blank, hollow eyes watched him, waiting for the precise moment to say something. Yet, she didn't, just blinked, turned away for a second, then looked back at him. Suppose I should say something. She thought to herself. But then, why should I? She always ended up fighting with herself over these little matters. Finally, she just decided to nod, showing she acknowledged him.


Run just as fast as I can
To the middle of nowhere
To the middle of my frustrated fears
And I swear you're just like a pill
Instead of makin' me better, you keep makin' me
ill
You keep makin' me ill

[HITLER]

<sub>Pace stayed even as he progress forward, but not nessacarily towards her. Horses came here to think, he knew, and she was no light, he could sense, so there was no reason to walk over. He had no mind to disturb his kind. Only the lights, simply because the more riled they became, the more comical it all became. Shooting another sideways glance in her direction, he snorted softly to himself for no particular reason other than to shatter the dull silence that had settled about him.

Pillars halter, and he slid a few short paces on the ice. This ice was really the kind of ice for sliding. It was rougher, making it easy to walk on. Boa tucked itself and his optics watched her in the same emotionless state that she had watched him for that brief moment. Odd, seeing that you had stuff in common with others such as this. Everything here seemed odd. Looking back, his boa extened outward a little bit, as in a stretching mann, than rested parallel from the ground, as he took up his staring into oblivian again, but his eyes now and then would drift.</sub>

[|E v o k e|]

It's not so much who you are,

Ooids followed the brutes every movement from a sideway view. Once she was sure he wasn't going to say or do anything, she looked ahead, pondering over her latest happenings in life. A slight yet heavy weight was lifted upon her shoulders. Life is worthless. She said to herself. She had gone over this matter alot of times during the past few months. Life has no meaning other then to wait until you die. Anything else has no meaning. Such a happy girl, our dear Evoke, are you sure thats all there is? It was Cadvan, once again, perking up at the moment she began her 'life' talk.

Yes. Well, the only meaning that matters. Death is sweet and enticing. I've already died inside, theres nothing left there. But, on the matter, let's say, the 'normal' horses, for example. They go about their lives only to either get a land, find a mate, breed and have a s*** load of children then die. Doesn't that seem pretty sad? I can't say I like my life, I can't say I hate it. I have no emotions, I have no feelings, no opions on it. I live my life to serve Saetan, because that is what came to mind when I was young. Basically, all of the Darks serve Saetan, except, of course, those want-be's who decide to make them selves look big and tough and be 'bad ass'. But really, they have no idea what it means to serve Saetan, they have no idea what it truely means to let the darkness devour you. Hollow you out. Kill you inside. And then mark you as one of it's own.

To make my life and other equine's lives a living Hell, is the only reason I seem fit to stay alive, well, at least, stay on this pathetic planet they call Earth. It's funny, in a way, how they all go about it like it's why they were given existance, to live and die. It does not appeal to me in any way. Then, what does? I suppose this is just another of my rants, and I shall find something else tomorrow? We'll see, I suppose.

Think-box had become empty, aside from those thoughts. Evoke had become even more empty then she had ever been in her life. And that's saying something. "It's all just a pathetic game that some fool watches with amusement." She hadn't meant to spoken out loud, and, she wasn't really aware she had. But, none-the-less, that was her point of view.

But what you are.

[o.o.c] Gah. Didn't know what else to go on about, so, -shrugs-.

[HITLER]

<sub>Snort ran from his nares, like a firecracker in the still ice realm. Daggers dragged along the crystalized water as pistons worked to move him steadily towards the wrench. There was a calming sensation in the air, but shivers of anticipation ran down his spine. What he was anticipating was unclear. It wasn't something you could touch, but more of something he knew would be coming in the future. Auds flickered, watching as he again restored silence.

His steps were silent, and the prints he left weren't barely visible on the ice. But you knew he was coming, not just by seeing him. There was something strange in the air, made you want to flee. It couldn't be helped, and wasn't intentional, but he was just that way. He didn't have an air that made it seem like he was trying be darq, or scary, or even tough. He just was. Than a deep voice broke through the silence. He had nothing pressing to do, why not disturb those he didn't wish to be disturbed.

" cold evening. "</sub>

[|E v o k e|]

Wouldn't it be easier,

Lifeless orbs watched the brute from a distance, every move. When you’ve seen as much as Evoke has, you learn to be like that, you form the instinct. This Male, he had a – manner – that surrounded him. A brutal manner, a vile manner, a darq manner. Well, at least she could be sure there were genuine equines around here. That was a big plus. Throughout her years, Evoke had come across many posers, who ended up one way or another, feeling the wrath of her temper. But, no, this one had the presence of a true Saetan follower. That awarded him a brownie point. Which was rare in this case, for Evoke had never been so – calm, let’s say – around any other equine. Never had she gone without her usual routine of ‘b.itchyness’. Perhaps she’s starting to get sick of that juvenile stage? And moving onto the mature scale. Being a Darq isn’t just about being evil, killing everyone or being a b.itch. No, it had other meanings. One, for example, would be to devote yourself to Saetan, we can check that, two would be the matter of the darkness that is inside of you and then three would be you’re mind. Well, these things are just from Evoke’s point of view. The brutes words broke into her thoughts like a knife being scraped over a blackboard. Blinking a few times, she turned her thoughts to low and came out of her mind.

“Indeed it is, though, pleasantly so.”

Evoke replied to his words in the usual matter, cold and emotionless, nothing to hear except the words. Now was this an invite for a conversation? For she did reply. Well, we shall see then, won’t we? My name, I suppose, should be said, after all, who would it be hurting?

“I go by the name Evoke, if it has any importance.”

She stated, an audible sigh followed. Nothing really has importance to a dark, nothing at all, and you shouldn’t be any different, if you truly are what you claim to be. Thoughts trailed in and out of her mind like a mouse playing hide and seek with a cat.

To just turn away from it a l l ?